|Posted on December 27, 2013 at 3:20 PM|
All the best in 2014, and good-bye?
Well as 2013 comes to a close, and we near 2014 and the wonders it will bring I am feeling that a decision has to be made, and I am not looking forward to it. When I was 15 I wrote my first song and something amazing happened. I saw the world differently. Musically and lyrically most of what I wrote the first couple years weren’t great, but they were my songs. A lot written about my life and experiences (or what I imagined they would be like). Being trained only on a Technics E-33 and trumpet with no real recording equipment I started a journey writing for myself, with a small hope I could get out and play, maybe hear my music on the radio. As the years past my writing became better, I wrote less about direct experiences and I began to find a blend of sound from my major influences that has become my sound. I learned guitar and updated my recording gear and got to the point that I was producing my own music and releasing it on-line. I have never played my music live though, or for that matter any music live (although hosting karaoke did give me great practice in singing) and I think that is the only regret I have when it comes to my music. But as I look forward I do not see where I can devote the needed time to my music that I need, even to just write and record for myself let alone produce something to upload. Even the last couple of years since I recorded 110709 in 2012 I have not been able to afford the time to it.
So it is with that in the front of my mind that I must decide what to do. Do I try to fit in a couple minutes here or there, or do I just walk away and take solace in the fact, that I did achieve my dream from 25 years ago and got my music out there? This is by no means an easy choice for me as music has always been my main avenue to express myself or work through both good and bad times. By trying to continue I will still have that avenue to explore what’s in my mind, release my creative nature. But I will constantly fight with having projects sit barely started because I cannot commit to them. Yet if I lay the dream to sleep for good I have to wonder how I will change. For now though I think the only course of action is to take a step back to let everything sink in. Over the next little bit I will be thinning out my on-line presence, keeping for now my website, Facebook, Twitter and Reverbnation. These are the only places I have been able to spottily maintain from the start and I think I can still keep up on those ones since they are all interconnected. I will however leave my youtube channel as it is and not remove it as the tutorials have been helpful to some and I think it would be a shame to deny anyone the chance to learn a song they wish to learn.
I now close, with Gowan’s song ‘You’ll Be With Me’ rolling through my mind and thank-you for taking the time to bring me into your life…..
Let the music always play